Archive for September, 2010

A Working Day

School begins tomorrow.

I’m back to days of waking up at 5:30, in car with computer, school bag, and lunch bag by 6:15 and should be at school 7:00. Should be out of school by 4:00 and home by 5:30. Naps, gym, early dinner and back to my desk at 9:00 to plan for the next day. Should be in bed by 11:00.

This year is just like any other, another full plate. But this year, I have another person walking with me, God.


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A Summer Without You

It’s the first summer without traveling, without saying bitter goodbyes and coming home hugs.  A summer without random backpacking into unknown cities and deciphering public transportation.  A summer with no random rides to Santa Barbara or Malibu for grilled swordfish. A summer without you.

I am learning to adapt to a world without your calls in the morning and random moments of I-am-calling-just-because. I am learning about pain and acceptance when my heart beats to the drums of unknown emotions.  I am learning to open once closed doors.  I am learning to ride without you by my side.

And I am doing okay babe.  I am doing okay.

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I can’t remember the last time I made a post on this blog, but the time seems fitted to start spilling random thoughts on this random world of mine, a space that is an obscurity.

My life this summer has been in constant motion and a packed roller coaster ride of emotions, reflective moments, and time wasted staring into the white walls of my room.  Life has never been so random and unpredictable.  I don’t know how to classify how I feel or express them in words because once I have it typed, I want to go back and hit the delete button, just delete, delete, delete. An identity crisis.

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